It's been 18 years since Angie left this earth. I can't believe it. She's missed out on A LOT of big things in 18 years. My mind is drawn to 1994, since she missed it by weeks. Here are just a few pop culture milestones:
• OJ Simpson's trial. Man she would've been glued to Court TV during that one!
• She never saw movies like Forrest Gump, The Lion King or Pulp Fiction.
• She never heard music from artists like Sublime, The Fugees, or one hit wonders like Dead Eye Dick and their song "New Age Girl".
• She missed out on "Friends". She would've loved that show. (Sorry Molly, you know it's true.)
• She wasn't able to voice her opinion on politics and politicians....
As I write this, I find that it's the little things I miss more than anything in the world. I wish she could've:
• Met my wife and her family.
• Seen all of our little cousins who aren't so little anymore.
• Met her stepfather and stepmother and known that her parents were happy.
• Been my older sister as an adult. I want to believe that we'd have been best friends and we'd have helped each other through all the hard stuff while enjoying the happy things that life has to offer.
This Christmas is going to be hard because it's the first one without my Dad, but I'm not as sad about that as I thought I would be. Don't get me wrong...I hate that he's gone and I've certainly cried my tears because Cancer is an SOB and Dad wasn't ready to go, but he told me that he had 60 years on this earth and he was okay with that. He's right. Neither one is fair, but I'd rather have 60 years than just 16. Hell, I'm pretty pleased with 32 years when you consider that tomorrow isn't promised to anyone.
I could go on and on, but I'm rambling and you get the point. I believe she's seen all of it from heaven, but it's just not the same. Call me selfish, but I want my sister back.
I miss you Angie. Say hi to Pop for me. Don't worry, I'll keep taking care of Mom.